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polymods ([personal profile] polymods) wrote in [community profile] polylogs2021-05-01 03:00 pm

Destination: Carcosa

POLYMYTHOS: CARCOSA

Carcosa


Ⅰ. THE TEMPLE
You can read all about your character's arrival in the game lore.
The island's harbour is full of other ships, although not a single one of them seems to actually have a human being aboard. (You could certainly try to steal one, but doing so is an exercise in futility - you will find that even if you set off into the ocean you will wind up right back in the harbour again after spending a few hours lost in the fog.) Beyond the harbour is a glittering city of glass and gold. Curving arches and sharp geometric lines are the hallmarks of the architecture - an art deco paradise that whispers of decadence and hope for the future.

The people who crowd the streets wear suits and hats, drop-waist dresses and furs. Their faces are all blank smiles. It's the roaring twenties, darling, why do you look so concerned?

If it is your first experience of the Endless Isles, you have access to the High Temple. Should you wish, you may also seek out the island's own temple as well, which is located inside the city, in a district mostly forgotten by the residents. Don’t worry - your feet will carry you there.

The building is not large, and it is old and neglected. It has a domed ceiling, with panels of glass crisscrossed with metal painted gold curving upward. Whatever fine pattern may have formed there is lost to time; the glass at the centerpoint of the dome is gone, letting in the smell of the sea.

There are rooms equipped with beds spreading out like a spiderweb from the middle of the building. The temple proper is of course in the exact center, below the broken dome. In the middle of this circular room you will find dead branches gathered together to make a vaguely humanoid shape. This crude figure has been haphazardly painted yellow. A slab of concrete sits in front of it. There is not much to explore here; it is very quiet.

Either temple is a good place to simply rest, or meet some of your fellow Travelers. The High Temple of course has the Temple Chef and its usual Guardians, Flock, and Lantern.

The Island Temple has its own Guardians, which are small, pale humanoids with perfectly blank faces and small antlers like young deer. They will leave you alone unless you try to meddle with the central room. Doing so will result in one of them approaching you, and you will find yourself falling unconscious on the floor.



Ⅱ. THE MASQUERADE
Through happenstance, you find yourself in an enormous ballroom. Low couches are dotted everywhere, and a live band plays somewhere at the end of the massive space. A long bar takes up one side of the room, bottles sparkling under the light cast from the many cut-glass chandeliers hanging overhead. Champagne flows freely, and the scent of gin pervades the air.

All of the attendees are wearing masks.

You're dressed for the occasion, of course - you will find yourself wearing something reminiscent of 1920s America, with a small yellow sigil of some sort pinned to your breast. Ask any of the guests about it and they will tell you, "ah, it's a secret." You too, of course, are wearing a mask. You did not pick this mask, but if you look in the mirror hung over the bar you will find that it nonetheless hints at some aspect of your personality.

Which would be all well and good, except that you can't take the bloody thing off.

Moving around the ballroom, you will discover that a few other people also have the yellow sigil pinned to their clothing. It probably shouldn't surprise you that these people are all other Travelers, equally unable to take their mask off.

No, you can't unmask until you share something with your new-found friend: a secret. A REAL one, the sort you'd never speak aloud.

Of course, you can choose not to share. If you choose that route, however, you'll find that the mask is fusing with your skin. Leave it on past midnight when the cries of "UNMASK! UNMASK!" begin, and it will simply become your new face for the duration of the month.



Ⅲ. THE PLAY
Maybe parties aren't your style. No fear, there's plenty more to do and see in such a wondrous city. There's a theatre - the Meliora Grand as a matter of fact - and perhaps you're just the sort of person who would like to take in the arts.

The theatre has plush seats, and fabulous electric sconces lining the wall. Once you take your seat you'll find yourself looking at the stage, where a blood-red velvet curtain hangs. The theatre doesn't seem to fill up - indeed, it really seems that there's only you and one or two other people there. Curious.


The lights go down and the curtain is drawn open, revealing... well. Not much.

There are two chairs on the stage, a table between them. On the table lays a pallid face: a mask. Just a mask. Why not go on up and take a closer look?

Should you choose to touch the mask, you will feel a deep urge to speak to whoever else is in the theatre. You will, in fact, feel the desire to act out some sort of emotional trauma with them. Perhaps they suddenly look like your mother, your father, a lover who left you. Why don't you tell them how you really feel?

Naturally, you can both just sit in awkward silence instead. You'll be waiting until the morning to be let out, if that's the case.



Ⅳ. LOST CARCOSA
CW: the undead.
You find yourself walking along the beach at night. Along the shore the cloud-waves break, and black stars rise above you.

You can't quite pinpoint when you realise you are no longer alone. Maybe there is only one other person on the beach with you, or perhaps a few; you move as one down the expanse of sand until you realise there is something laying up ahead of you.

There is a heap of yellow cloth there, dry and tattered with age. It smells faintly of spices. Nestled among it is a jewel-encrusted human skull. Its empty sockets compel you to sit down in the cool, bone-white sand, to sit and speak to those around you about loss.

Everyone has lost something important to them. A person, a thing, a place, an aspect of the self. Something that's gone and you're never getting back. The skull grins endlessly, endlessly, encouraging you to speak about something you may not have laid to rest.

You can resist this compulsion. Maybe you were never good at sharing. Refuse the skull's silent request and you may continue down along the beach, or perhaps head back the way you came. As you walk, however, you will notice that there is a fog rolling in. It comes in off the sea/sky, obscuring the beach until you can barely see.

It's a terribly handy cover for the corpses that are shambling out of the surf. Wet, bloated, with eyes that glow a dim gold, they head for you silently. They wish to drag you back with them, into the depths. Better hope you can outrun or outfight them.

Bonus: What's that? You want a Carcosa playlist? You've got it, babes!


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chardismastic: (104.)

[personal profile] chardismastic 2021-05-16 04:52 pm (UTC)(link)
[ To be perfectly frank, Rafe is still convinced he tripped over a tree root or something and cracked his head. He's an intelligent, well-traveled, rational guy and knows better than to believe the magical load of horse shit he's being served here. So he can ride this out until he wakes up, gets back on his feet, and goes on to find the greatest pirate treasure of all time.

Which is why he just takes a stroll along the beach after the Ferryman finishes his orientation spiel. All that traveling crap is fine for dream-flavor but again. So much whatever. He doesn't even flinch when some leviathan pops up out of the water and squirts out some nasty smelling detritus onto the beach. Typical dream weirdness though the Jonah motif is a bit farther out than he'd expect of his dreamscapes.

But then one of the larger chunks of said detritus rolls over and shows off a truly tacky tattoo, faux gothic letters declaring 'X Marks The Spot' below a trio of gunshot scars and right above—
]

Jesus Christ!

[ Well. That's one point settled. This is definitely real. No drug-induced, concussion-laden, traumatic-brain-injury mindfuck would conjure up a naked Samuel Drake out of his subconscious, he doesn't care how out of it he is. ]
cryptsleeper: (i have an idea it's kind of a dick move)

[personal profile] cryptsleeper 2021-05-16 05:34 pm (UTC)(link)
The easiest thing to be would to test sight. If we run ahead and they follow, the answer is painfully obvious.

[Alucard's careful to keep his voice at the same volume, the concern about using sound to locate things a valid one. If they're advanced upon with whispers, they also have an answer.

Stillness settles into the air, but that gives Alucard absolutely no comfort. He's barely registering his new ally as it is, far too caught up in the need to get away than anything else.

She's not human. That'll do for now, and anything else can be dealt with once they're past the fog. And then Alucard has to ask something stupid, because it seems so terribly obvious.]


Can your wings move some of the fog so we can see in front of us as we proceed?
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[personal profile] kyley_b 2021-05-16 05:42 pm (UTC)(link)
Kyle's first reaction is to twitch. He can't help it, it's that name. Then his eyes get wider and wider until he snaps and grabs Wade by the front of his spiffy new suit with one fist.

"Don't you say that name!" he warns, like he really will haul off and pop him one. He lets go, looking pale.

"I don't know how you know all that," he says sickly. "And I don't care. Just. No. NO. That was years ago."
what_fourth_wall: (Hmmmmm...)

[personal profile] what_fourth_wall 2021-05-16 06:05 pm (UTC)(link)
"So you really are the Kyle from the cartoon." He nods, confirming something to himself. "I think we all got sucked here from different places. In my place, you were a kid in a cartoon." It's the best way to explain the fourth walling, and it makes sense. Also, it's 100% accurate. He did meet Maleficent earlier.

"So if you're this, what did..uh..Fatass?" That's what they called him in the cartoon anyway. "..end up becoming? Clearly nothing better than what he was if THIS is your response..."

unkindled_madness: (talking)

[personal profile] unkindled_madness 2021-05-16 06:18 pm (UTC)(link)
[That "we" is notable to him, for similar reasons. He may be used to commanding others, but he isn't used to ad hoc partnerships. He thinks she's probably the same, which is... unusual, but not disagreeable. They're situational allies at best, and it's appreciated if she won't take offense to a certain measure of distrust. She could be useful, but he's not about to turn his back.]

That would be preferable to playing along.

I don't suppose you're able to sense the magic at work here? That strikes me as the quickest way to search them out.

[He's not certain what powers come along with being... whatever she is, but an affinity for magic seems as likely as any. As for himself, he's only familiar with one sort of magic, and it isn't something he can access here. Whether he's capable of anything else... remains to be seen. An unknown and untrained ability is of no use now.]

Though whether we're being observed in person, or via these... [He lifts his hand to indicate his Scrywatch--yellow--and then shrugs. Either is possible.]
extrasensory_problems: (concern)

[personal profile] extrasensory_problems 2021-05-16 10:10 pm (UTC)(link)
He notices the slight resistance when she goes to remove her mask and for a moment he is angry at whatever put the masks there in the first place, at whatever decided the conditions in which they were able to be removed. To share a secret that causes such discomfort seems like an obvious out but that hint of resistance almost implies that she needs to do more.
And that doesn't seem fair.

What makes you think this is a fair place? A cold voice whispers in his mind and he turns away from it.

Instead he offers her a soft smile, "What would you prefer? Gin or champagne? Both maybe? I think they call that a French 75..."
bonnylass: (pic#14716447)

[personal profile] bonnylass 2021-05-16 10:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It isn't as though she isn't angry enough at what's being done to them not to want to try to find the people responsible for their captivity and make an end to them, whatever the results, but right now Anne is far more concerned with being stopped. The fog that is swallowing them by the minute is terribly disconcerting and she can't shake the feeling that they're being watched. She'd felt it on the docks too, but out here it's harder to ignore or explain away. ]

You don't think they're baitin' us? With all them ships?

[ It was far too easy to steal the boat they had, and all of them just being left like that for the taking? It was insane if whoever owned them didn't want something exactly like this to happen. ]

What if it's some kind of test?
bonnylass: (pic#14820047)

[personal profile] bonnylass 2021-05-16 10:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It isn't untrue, but Anne's hands still flex unconsciously to stretch the scars from the last time she'd had to fight without a weapon and was forced to improvise. The compliment, if it is that, only receives a narrowing of the eyes from Anne. Friendliness is something to be distrusted, as far as she's concerned, and the flirtiness in the woman's stare stirs her and makes her tense all at once. ]

Are you kiddin'?

[ Anne plainly doesn't believe her, assumes it must have something to do with her being spoiled or full of herself or somehow otherwise misinformed. There's no way someone that pretty and friendly and otherwise unconcerned could possible be able to fight when she needed to.

She must mean she's smart, Anne assumes. Tricky. Like a remarkable, delicate woman that Anne knows, who certainly can look out for herself, in a manner of speaking. ]
bonnylass: (pic#14820053)

[personal profile] bonnylass 2021-05-16 10:41 pm (UTC)(link)
What d'you mean, whispers?

[ Anne is familiar enough with the power of a rumor, the brothel she'd been part owner of on Nassau having been a font of useful ones when her crew was looking for a prize worth taking. So far, she thinks, that's the only useful thing this girl has said so far.

As for what Anne was doing? Sitting alone and drinking doesn't seem important or remarkable enough for her to bother mentioning. Jack is the social one, not her, and when he'd left to find strangers to find ins with, she'd done what she always does when she's left alone. ]
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[personal profile] bonnylass 2021-05-16 10:42 pm (UTC)(link)
They come down on our level just to fuck with us? Surely it can't be that hard to stick a knife in one next time they try it.

[ She hadn't had her wits about her on the boat, yet. That's what she's telling herself. And here? She can't figure out a target that would be worth the effort. ]

Ain't like they're just gonna be handin' that information away. [ Her unspoken question being: what are you planning to do about it, then? ]
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[personal profile] lickstheevidence 2021-05-16 11:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[Connor starts at the other's voice, belatedly realizing that his proximity alert sensors had been trying to get his attention for the past thirty seconds. He's been so intently studying the intricacies of the figure that he hadn't noticed the man drawing up behind him.

Composing himself- though it was doubtful the man recognized his momentary alarm -he squints up at him from where he's sitting, looking at him thoughtfully for a beat.]


If that's the case, then why bother with any of this? [He shakes his head, turning to look at the wooden figure again.] Or maybe that's what we were brought here to find out?
incelligent: (169)

[personal profile] incelligent 2021-05-16 11:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah?

[...No.

Simon's muscles tense, though the nature of it is subtle. His nerves haven't been lessened by alcohol, mostly due to the fact that he refuses to partake, having never tried anything like it before.
]

Is that why you're downin' so much champagne all of a sudden?

[He notes that the other has yet to introduce himself.

But Simon has a feeling he knows the name. That is, if his guess is the correct one.
]

Pardon my French, but you don't seem to be handlin' it very well.

[The more nebbishy of the two takes a marked step back.]
suckonthis: (just ride off into the sunset with me go)

[personal profile] suckonthis 2021-05-16 11:53 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It seems as if the moment when they stop skirting around each other is coming to an end. Gone is the pretense that they've never spoken before, that no horrible secrets have been exchanged... but Ryo is pretty sure he knows.

He stands his ground when Simon retreats, giving him an unreadable look. ]


Why would I be taking it well? Would you if your best friend was scared of you?

[ That's what it all fell down to, ultimately. The anger, the loathing... it was all because Akira was scared of what Ryo was capable of, and while that's not him yet, it will be. Maybe. There's something in his tone that's challenging Simon to call him out.

Champagne or not, he's not nearly drunk enough for this night. ]
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[personal profile] lickstheevidence 2021-05-16 11:55 pm (UTC)(link)
[He's inwardly dismayed that his behavior is negatively affecting her, but he knows that ultimately it will be for the best. He isn't good company, nor is he trustworthy. People are better off staying away from him. They're safer that way.]

I did ask for help, so thank you. We have eliminated the possibility of another person being able to remove the mask, so now we can forge ahead with others.

[He watches her carefully when she looks away, noting how her stress levels seem to be lowering a few percentage points. It's good that she's nervous around him, even if it plucks a pang of loneliness in his thirium pump. He's seen no sign of Hank yet, no others like he and Chloe. He knew he wouldn't be bothering the androids of Jericho, and Chloe is better off without the threat he poses, but he hadn't expected to be completely on his own so soon after deviating. He'd hoped for Hank at least.

He nods at her confession, folding his hands together behind his back. Now it's his turn to gaze around the room, taking in the other party-goers before his eyes land back on her form. He can read the tension there, the lingering distress in her posture.]


I suspected as much.

[His eyes widen almost imperceptibly, something a human would never have noticed as he watches her remove the mask after her confession. How he longs for his quarter to drain off some of his excess nerves! It's harder for him to read his fellow androids, but the brief flash of fear is unmistakable. He tilts his head, absorbing the information his HUD is telling him about her: the increased pace of her thirium pump, her rate of unnecessary respiration, the slivers of red that creep into the yellow of her rapidly cycling LED. He knows that his own LED matches hers, dreading the thought of having to reveal a secret in order to rid himself of this loathsome mask. And yet the more he gives it attention, the greater the compulsion to confess becomes. He bows his head, his eyes falling to the floor as his voice drops to little above a whisper.]

I am afraid.

[Of everything, as he feels his LED burn red in his temple.]
incelligent: (15)

[personal profile] incelligent 2021-05-17 12:01 am (UTC)(link)
[Simon knows nothing of his future. He has yet to commit the horrid atrocity that ultimately destroys his own friendship and by virtue ruins a small child's life forever, cementing a foot in his own grave. He can't possibly imagine a future where Grace, always one step ahead, the highest number wielder, would fear him.

And yet...
]

No.

Without her, it'd feel like...

[He wonders if he should say this out loud. He does, hoping that the other just won't remember.]

Life wouldn't really be worth livin', I guess.

Is it the same for you?

[What Simon doesn't realize is that his mask, if tampered with, will now indeed come off.]
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suckonthis: (l'oreal)

[personal profile] suckonthis 2021-05-17 12:49 am (UTC)(link)
[ Earlier in the night, he'd had a moment of clarity as to what would be good enough to free himself of the burden his mask presented. Ryo wasn't foolish enough to tell anyone yet, but he's a little sad and pretty lonely. He'd die first before he spoke of that.

It doesn't sound like Simon actually wants to admit to what he does, so for whatever reason, Ryo lets it pass. He's tired. ]


I don't want to think about that. Maybe it's a blessing the world is trying to end.

[ Delivered unsarcastically. Christ. ]

At least he's got a fighting chance of surviving. I did something right.
incelligent: (162)

cw: ig???? like suicidal ideation jesus christ

[personal profile] incelligent 2021-05-17 12:59 am (UTC)(link)
[And that confirms it. His brows rise, though only slightly.

Simon recalls ending their previous transmission in a fit of fright, though here he steels himself, curious and in search of more information. If Ryo is the friend that Akira mentioned, someone who would be around the same age and supposedly an individual to be avoided, that would indeed make him a threat. If he were to go off of other conversations, the young man standing before him was the treacherous sort. Not to be trusted... And dangerous enough to somehow be involved in the end of humanity as they knew it.
]

But he didn't want to.

[But Simon wants so badly to be something before he dies. Whether that is the highest number wielder, or someone who earns more than just a friendly place in Grace's heart, he couldn't tell you.

He just wants more.
]

Did he?

[There was only one other teenager in this place that Simon knew of, and he'd been pretty sad.]
suckonthis: (trading off miki for a better model)

sounds about right.

[personal profile] suckonthis 2021-05-17 01:15 am (UTC)(link)
[ A ticking timebomb; that's what Ryo is. As if to serve as a reminder, he goes stiff at the question, blunt nails digging into his own palms. The urge to strike out is terrible. Maybe it shows, but it's gone moments later and he looks away with a sharp turn of his head. Perhaps he's searching the crowd for the only familiar face here. ]

I would never intentionally hurt him. I'd rather die. [ His attention returns to Simon. ] I don't need to defend myself to you.

[ It's conversational, if not a tad clipped. There's a hint of defensiveness beneath it and in the way his lips thin into a grimace. ]

That's between he and I. I'll ask that you don't try to interfere if you know what's good for you.

[ Listen he's not dead. He's just being mildly threatened. ]
incelligent: (167)

[personal profile] incelligent 2021-05-17 01:36 am (UTC)(link)
Don't bother.

[Simon's eyes narrow. He, too, is possessive of Grace, though that quality doesn't really rear its ugly head until later, because he trusts her. Because in all this time, she's been the only one never to betray him, the only constant in the harrowing life they've stupidly come to believe is better than the ones that they've hailed from.

While far less safe, at least they have each other. And, as horrible as it is, they can dictate things on their own terms.
]

I haven't seen him.

[Simon waits before he says anything further, searching for a signal of some sort, a way that would tell him how Ryo's abilities work. Surely he couldn't have destroyed the Earth by being a normal teenager, oh no. Something had to be up.

Hadn't he said his own father had tried to kill him? A horrible thought, but what if it was to prevent something far worse?
]

He doesn't seem too thrilled about ya.

Or anyone else, for that matter. Not from what I hear, anyway.

[Don't say it, don't say it-]

Guess you haven't really got a leg up on the rest of us anymore, though, huh?
suckonthis: (someone ate his fucking thin mints bro)

sometimes my icon names get me...

[personal profile] suckonthis 2021-05-17 01:54 am (UTC)(link)
How do you even function with your head that far up your own ass?

[ It's hissed between clenched teeth and he takes a step closer. There are no powers that show themselves, not now. It's a souring temperament that's rearing its ugly head, making his expression tighten. He's not fond of someone challenging him when he's hurt, and yet, here Simon is, prodding him in all of the tender spots. ]

A leg up? How is my friendship a competition?!

[ Even back home, he hadn't felt as if his bond with Akira was any less with Miki trailing around in her singular simp parade. She was just annoying. Simon... well, he's annoying too. At least the girl didn't have it in her to do anything beyond call him pretty and question Akira's willingness to just pick up and go the moment he asked. ]

We're all fucked here, in case you didn't get it through your thick skull Simon.

[ It'd be an embarrassment if he was wrong, but he's damned sure of it now. ]
incelligent: (47)

[personal profile] incelligent 2021-05-17 02:09 am (UTC)(link)
You're right, Ryo. It's not!

[Though that unkind grin Simon is now sporting would suggest otherwise.]

Friendship's all just fun n' games. That's why it hurts soooo much when they stop talking to ya.

[He's hurt, too, and insecure. Violence and bringing harm to others he sees as less than, weak, or undeserving of his sympathy, because yes, that is a prize to be won as well-]

Quit takin' all your anger out on me.

[Simon despises being spoken to in such a condescending tone. Especially by someone who is even the slightest bit younger.]

It won't make him come back to you.
suckonthis: (cupid arrows promise)

[personal profile] suckonthis 2021-05-17 02:21 am (UTC)(link)
I'm not taking my anger out on you. I am just making an observation.

[ That your head is up your ass because that's the only reason you'd continue to prod the fucking bear. If Ryo really were to take out all of his anger, he'd happily knock himself into red. As it is, he remains at orange.

Who the hell talks like this to someone that's supposedly CAUSED THE APOCALYPSE? Said bringer of doom and destruction sways in place and he looks troubled. But his face slips into a carefully neutral mask -- as if he needed a new one. A deep breath is had, held, and let out. Imagine he's counting to infinity to not deck this kid out. ]


You're wrong. He spoke with me earlier tonight.
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[personal profile] incelligent 2021-05-17 02:31 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, wow! Whoopdee-doo! I'm so glad thing's between you two are finally lookin' up.

[Spoken like he doesn't mean a word of it. Every hint of his tone is so overly saccharine it just feels rotten.]

If you're on such good terms, where'd he go, huh?

[Simon's voice is light and airy.

Partially to mask the bitterness he feels himself- Things would be so much easier for him if Grace was here too.
]

Listen, pal. Like you said, if we don't all work together, we're pretty much doomed.

I'd like to do that. But what I'd also like is for you to quit bein' such a jerk! I can play nice, I promise.
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suckonthis: (stop arguing with door dash)

[personal profile] suckonthis 2021-05-17 02:51 am (UTC)(link)
[ He actually sneers. Good on Simon for getting him to break a bit. ]

Is this your version of playing nice? I don't really think my joke about a sensitive stomach is quite on par for you being so flippant about the one thing that matters to me.

[ How... clueless. Ryo really does oversimplify his impact on others when they aren't Akira. Disbelief has settled in. He wants to slap the blond but doesn't. Ryo settles for shooting a hand out to grasp at the lapel on Simon's very smart jacket. It's a secure grip and they're companionably close, although his voice drops. ]

You ran at the idea of what I could be. It's clear you don't want to work with me.

[ As if he's aware of the crowd around him, he releases his grip and steps back, swallowing back a few choice words. This wasn't the place. ]
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[personal profile] incelligent 2021-05-17 03:10 am (UTC)(link)
That's because where I'm from, seventeen year old kids aren't usually responsible for the apocalypse.

[Simon slaps Ryo's hands off his person. It's clear he doesn't like being touched, not by him.]

I'm just tryin' to figure all of this out! None of it makes any sense to me.

[He hesitates to mention that he's alone in this. Technically, he isn't. Somehow, making friends was easier as a child.

Is that because he trusted people more easily? Or is because now, at his current age, he's just that hard to care about?

Wow. That hurts.
]

You say you care about your friend, but you're just the worst. He doesn't even want to go with you! Urgh.

[As angry as Simon is, that all sounds frighteningly familiar. But in the end, hadn't he and Grace made up? He so desperately wants to go back to that. To return to the friendship that he does remember.]

He's so messed up right now.

Doesn't it hurt to see him like that? God, it makes me sad, for cryin' out loud.