"It's not as if there's a step by step manual," Malcolm says. "You don't get down on your knees and pray to a god for forgiveness."

He's slightly defensive. Malcolm doesn't really know what he has to do, but then again, he's fairly sure that nobody else does either. Maybe the problem is that he has to forgive himself for the things that he's done. He might be here for years before he's able to do that.