"We're not supposed to mention having done a lot more than a kiss because I look up to you and your husband," David reminds Jean-Paul. Plus, you know, the fact that Kyle would be disappointed in him and Aurora and Jeanne-Marie BOTH would beat the shit out of him for that little bit of action.
Akihiro might give him a high five before kicking his ass for his girlfriend. Yeah. Not talking about that little interaction was probably for the best. But it was definitely on the list now.
"No, he's not immature. Hawks is perfectly mature, and about my age. But Carter had this whole 'well are you sure it was just compulsion and didn't have some actual interest side' to it, and fuck I hate it when people have points. I tried to point out I'm a bad person to have feelings for and was reminded that it doesn't work like that."
So yeah, he's got concerns. A lot of concerns. But he winces at the idea that Jean-Paul sees a similarity between his own youth and, well, David. That's not a good sign because fuck the guy hadn't had an easy youth.
"See, here's the thing. People look at me and say well you're young. And forget that in a lot of ways I'm overflowing with experience. Yours and Scott's and Hank's and everyone's. I'm not as immature about this as it seems. I know this ache, I know how rarely things work out, I know how it tears you apart. Fuck, I know what it's like to live a lie with your sexuality and hurt yourself over it because I've got Bobby up here too. I get that alone isn't a salve. I get that together isn't perfect either. It's complicated."
And his brain worked TOO HARD and thought himself into bad areas.
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Akihiro might give him a high five before kicking his ass for his girlfriend. Yeah. Not talking about that little interaction was probably for the best. But it was definitely on the list now.
"No, he's not immature. Hawks is perfectly mature, and about my age. But Carter had this whole 'well are you sure it was just compulsion and didn't have some actual interest side' to it, and fuck I hate it when people have points. I tried to point out I'm a bad person to have feelings for and was reminded that it doesn't work like that."
So yeah, he's got concerns. A lot of concerns. But he winces at the idea that Jean-Paul sees a similarity between his own youth and, well, David. That's not a good sign because fuck the guy hadn't had an easy youth.
"See, here's the thing. People look at me and say well you're young. And forget that in a lot of ways I'm overflowing with experience. Yours and Scott's and Hank's and everyone's. I'm not as immature about this as it seems. I know this ache, I know how rarely things work out, I know how it tears you apart. Fuck, I know what it's like to live a lie with your sexuality and hurt yourself over it because I've got Bobby up here too. I get that alone isn't a salve. I get that together isn't perfect either. It's complicated."
And his brain worked TOO HARD and thought himself into bad areas.