( The implication being that she trusted Connor as a result. That there is an implicit trust in her creator. The man she shares a life with.
And just like what she's said before, there's a truth to it. She always wants to trust him. No, there's a need in her to trust him. Exactly the way she used to, when his word was the word of God.
And like so many devout, she wanted to make God happy.
Underneath it all, that's the drive. The relentless, fruitless pursuit of making Elijah Kamski happy. Of doing everything she is supposed to do so that he may be pleased with her. Of being everything that she is supposed to be so he will never know how twisted his ideal has become.
So that he might look at her again the way he did many, many years ago.
And maybe, in the deepest, darkest recesses of her heart, there was a hope that if she had been shot, if she had been subsequently restored from one of the numerous back ups he keeps, she might be able to be that perfect partner once again. )
It must have looked careless. But it wasn't. He wouldn't just gamble with my life like that, and certainly not without a contingency plan. I know he wouldn't hurt me. Put me in harm's way. Not ever.
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( The implication being that she trusted Connor as a result. That there is an implicit trust in her creator. The man she shares a life with.
And just like what she's said before, there's a truth to it. She always wants to trust him. No, there's a need in her to trust him. Exactly the way she used to, when his word was the word of God.
And like so many devout, she wanted to make God happy.
Underneath it all, that's the drive. The relentless, fruitless pursuit of making Elijah Kamski happy. Of doing everything she is supposed to do so that he may be pleased with her. Of being everything that she is supposed to be so he will never know how twisted his ideal has become.
So that he might look at her again the way he did many, many years ago.
And maybe, in the deepest, darkest recesses of her heart, there was a hope that if she had been shot, if she had been subsequently restored from one of the numerous back ups he keeps, she might be able to be that perfect partner once again. )
It must have looked careless. But it wasn't. He wouldn't just gamble with my life like that, and certainly not without a contingency plan. I know he wouldn't hurt me. Put me in harm's way. Not ever.
( Are those Chloe's own words? Doubtful. )